Confession of an Addict.

Hey All, I am sure no one really comes by here anymore seeing as I NEVER post! HA! I have a cofession to make. I am an addict. I am addicted to Facebook and I find it hard to come do what's right and blog. I just can't help it. When the pressures come about I know I can rely on Facebook. I find myself thinking about what I SHOULD be doing, which is blogging or packing or eating or sleeping or...well you get the idea...but for some reason I am a magnet to Facebook. It is an addiction. You should check it out. LOL! Good luck and see you in a support group there I am sure! not sure if I will blog again, maybe when the guilt rises again! Later everyone or one.

Shame On Me!

Well, it has been way too long since I have posted. Forgive me. Things have been quite busy on this end. As of today, I am done my last essay for the PRE course! now it is on to packing and such. We are all doing well on this end. Mike goes to see his doc on the 19th about his biopsy so we will know more about his health then. We have been enjoying our family and taking in as much of eachother as we can. That is all I have for you now...LAME I know! I MIGHT write more now that my papers are done. I am not promising anything tho! Later!

Moving to Winnipeg!

Well it is official. We have been accepted for college this year! We will find out more about the move and stuff soon! I will keep you all posted thanks for the prayers!

Birthday Shout Out!

Hi everyone...Today I wanted to give a huge birthday shout out to my future sis in law Renee! I hope you have a good day! See you soon. Also, we have not heard anyhing on the college front yet, I will post when I know! Later!

Hello...

Hello Everyone,

Here is an update...First of all tho, I want to thank you all for your prayers. However, I would like to ask you to pray for him again, this time, next Wed! We got to the hospital and he went in to get prepped right at 9am. At 10am he came out and we went home. The doc was not able to see him so they asked him to come back next week! GRRRRRRRR! Oh well such is life. There is a reason for everything. Pray for whatever reason he was not able to be there (most likely someone had a heart attack). Lord help that situation. Anyhow, tomorrow we will find out if we are accepted to college for real. So that is it for now. Later.

Busy.

Hi. So things here are quite busy. Mike and I are still trying to get our assignments all done and it should be good. We are still waiting to hear if we are accepted or not, we will know on the 24th. Anyhow that is all I have for you now tho. Boring I know. Later.

Shout Out

Hey all! I just want to give a shout out to my hot husband. Today is his birthday. I am so thankful that God has placed him in my life! I am ever more stoked that for a whole 2 weeks I get to tease him about being older then me! Isn't it funny how things change? When we were courting, he would tease me about being a youngen for 2 weeks...Now the tables have turned and I tease HIM about being old!!! 2 Weeks doesn't seem like a big difference...Unless of course you are the younger one! LOL! Anyhow, to you my sweet hubby, I love you to bits and peieces and I am glad that God has seen fit to make you old! May he continue to do so for many more years! Love ya!

Life, Or Something!

Well, life is interesting. Good and interesting. First of all I MUST say that our visit with the Howards was GREAT! We had so much fun with them, it seemed as if the time was cut too short...You know how sometimes when you get company you feel by the end that it is time for them to leave??? Oh come on! I know you do!!! Or am I the only one? Anyhow, Well that doesn't happen with them. It was sad to see them go. We were(Shannon and I)in tears because if we go to college this yr, we don't know when we would see eachother again. **SIGH** I have shared that they are struggling with infertility, my own selfish fear is that I will not get to be here for her/them when the chips fall one way or the other. That really bothers me! God knows our heart tho so I will leave it with Him. Moving on, most of you are aware of Mike's health issues. Well, today he went to see the specialist and spent a long time with him. They have decided to take a sample of his bone marrow. Please be praying for him because on the morning of the 23rd, of this month, we will be at the hospital. Basically, they have to drill a hole in his back and take a sample. OUCH! I feel so bad for him. I am quite emotional about it. I mean, I KNOW that God has VERY capable hands but I still would like to know that my bestfriend is going to be alright. So we are in the whole "process of elimination" stage. Please be praying for our family. We are excited tho, cause after his yucky minor operation, we find out the next day if we are accepted to college! That is exciting! Well that is all I have for you now. Please keep the prayers coming, thanks! I will keep you posted! HA! Posted...That kills me. I need another vacation!

Interviews Over...Let The Fun Begin!

Hey everyone. Well, we are back from our meetings in Edmonton. Before I tell you about them, I want to thank all of you who have really prayed for us. We will know for sure if we are accepted on the 24th of May. As for the meetings...The first one was fairly relaxed. We were able to be together for this one and it was simple ?'s about our lives, how we met, our life journey and things like that. The second meeting was a little more "intense". See for us tho it was easy because we are VERY sure of our calling but I can see how it could be nerve racking for those who are not too sure. We were told that we would be going in one at a time. I went first. I got into the boardroom and there were about 10 people sitting around the table all waiting to fire different questions at me. It was funny because they all took turns and I didn't know who was going to ask the next one. Overall I think it went very well. It was fun. So that is the news on the interviews. Now we are home and looking forward to spending time with our great friends The Howards. We have been looking forward to this for a long time. So, since they are here, I am going to go and enjoy their company. Have a great day/weekend.

New Twist.

After breakfast, our family has morning devotions together. I want to relay today's to you. It was about a pro golfer named Robert De Vincenzo. The readers digest version goes like this: After winning a tournament, De Vincenzo flashed a smile for the cameras as he accepted his winning check. After all his duties, he was walking to his car and as he was crossing the parking lot he came across a sad eyed young lady. She proceeded to tell him that he was having a good day but she was not. She continued to tell him that she has a very sick baby girl with a blood disease, who the doctors said would die. De Vincenzo looked at her and without much thought asked if he could help her little girl. He then endorsed his winning check over to her and told her to make some good days for her baby. A week later, he was having lunch at a country club and someone asked him about the incident with the young lady. It was then he was told that the lady was a phony and that there really was no sick baby and that he had been scammed. He said, "You mean there isn't a baby who is dying without hope?" His buddy nodded. I love his reply. He grinned and said, "That's the best news I've heard all week." How cool is that? Not the response you would expect. Made me think about how I would have responded. Did it make you think?

YIPPEE!!

Alright so most of you know that Mike and I have been waiting anxiously for some of our first assignments to be returned. Well I am SUPER HAPPY to report that we are doing a GREAT job!!! Mike got 3 assignments back and he got the following grades: A, B+ and a B!!! I received 2 assignments back and here were my 2 marks...A and B+!!! I am SOOOOOOOO excited! I feel like celebrating!

Also something came to me as I was looking at these assignments. I think that a person truly needs to be passionate about something in order to succeed in it. Both Mike and I are not the best students, however, we ARE passionate about serving God so we will continue writing papers until we are told to stop, only because through this, we are serving God. I was reflecting about my past studiousness, or lack of more like it, I didn't make high grades in many subjects simply because I was not passionate about the subject. The subjects that I enjoyed on the other hand, were not too bad. So in light of this, here is a challenge...Figure out what are you passionate about. Then ask yourself this question, "Am I as/more passionate about serving God as I am about my other passions???" Just a thought.

Are You A Sacrament?

Ok so I know that the title has sparked your interest...Now that I have you here I want to share something that I am learning. Now if you know me I come from a background of churches that regularly practice the sacraments, such as baptism and communion. Now that I attend The Salvation Army, I no longer partake of any of those on a regular basis...which honestly kinda bothered me...Until today. See, many people believe that The Salvation Army does not believe in the sacraments...This is not true. It is in the Bible, therefore we very much so believe in it. We just choose not to let the rituals of church interfere with our daily worship, so to speak. In my studies I have learned that my very life is regarded as a sacrament. William Booth (founder of TSA) had the right idea after all. Probably a good thing that I agree with him, especially if I am willing to serve God through TSA from now on! Anyhow, it has come to my attention that "When our hearts are made holy, all of life is a sacrament." Grace does not come through the communion of bread and Welches but through the grace given to us by faith in Jesus. I know this is not new info but it just sat right with me today. Instead of partaking of bread and wine/juice...We in TSA commune with God in every aspect of our lives. Instead of baptism of babies we dedicate them, instead of adult baptism (which is a public declaration of faith), we wear uniforms...not just once but almost everyday to show our public commitment to Christ. As far as communion, we are instructed in the bible to do this in remembrance of Christ...Not every second Sunday of the month (or whenever churches do it) but EVERY time. This is why we, in our house anyways, try to have a mini devotional after a meal. The Salvation Army is in no way "anti-sacraments", as viewed by some. Rather, our sacraments are lived out every single day in The Salvation Army. I am a living sacrament. My life speaks of the grace given to me by God in faith, it is not dependant on bread, wine or water, as some, not all, churches believe. Too many people get caught up with the rituals of church and forget about grace altogether. Sacraments tend to separate the body of believers...We are all to be joined together in faith. Living a holy life consecrated to God. I am a living sacrament...Are you?

Case Papers Down

Hey everyone!
I just wanted to tell you all that our case papers are now out of our hands! We got them on Tuesday and by Thursday we dropped them off at the church! All that is left is Meg's medical on the 1st of May. That is all my news so far. I will keep you posted. HA get it? POSTED??? I need a vacation! **SIGH**

The Craziness Continues and I Love it!

Hey all, thought I should update before I get some complaints of my lack of posting...So on the college front, we received our full case papers yesterday which is yet another step in the huge process of college life. These papers include a medical for Megan, dental forms for our dentist to fill out, budget papers as well as life history and the pastor and key people in the church get to pick you apart yada, yada, yada...The kicker is that they want them done and back at the office for the 27th of THIS month! HA! Love it! I have discovered that I work very well under pressure...On top of our studies we need to get these papers done ASAP. SO please pray for it. I am really enjoying this process actually...It is fun and you learn about yourself. Alright moving on...Still no news on Mike's health, won't know much till after the 9th of May...As for Meg...**SIGH** For the last two days she has been a challenge. A wonderful challenge but a challenge none the less. She is not napping well, she is teething and everytime I put her down she cries. yet if a visitor comes she is completely happy. Funny. Not funny "Ha Ha" but just funny. Pray that she gets her teeth soon please. I feel so bad for her. Poor kid. Anyhow, that is all I have for you right now. Have a great day!

Prayer Please...

Hey all!

Ok so remember in my last post I said things must be ok with Mike's blood test? Well it turns out that after all the time we spent calling the doc (as requested of us) to find out the results...We just resolved to breathe a sigh of relief because we were told that everything must look normal because they had no results. Well I got a call yesterday from the doc's office wanting to set up an appointment with an internal specialist. Apparently things don't look so normal. What a HUGE disappointment. It is hard not to let my mind run away with different thoughts. Please pray for peace. Mike is fine, it is me! I know I just need to really trust in God and know that He will take care of everything! On May 9th he goes to see the specialist and we will know more hopefully. Until then, we will continue to trust God and live our life in a way that pleases Him. Please pray. Thanks.

The Prodical Poster

Well I am back. Sorry to all my faithful readers for not being as diligent in posting. I am sure I have a ton to tell you, now I just need to remember what is happening in our lives. Ok, first I want to tell you about a monetary blessing we received. It made me cry, not because we were given $150.00. I cried because it shows that God is really working in this particular family. It blesses my heart more to know that people are tuned in to God this much. ***SNIFF*** Anyhow, on uglier news, I got my period this month for the first time since having Meg. YUCK! I told Mike we should try for another baby just so I can be without it for another year and a half! Bad reason I know...Megan is now 8 months old and Mike and I were in bed last night wondering how she got to be so big already. Ridiculous really. I mean the kid is sitting up all by herself, playing with her toys, eating like crazy and talking all the time! What happened to my little baby who would sleep on me, or lay bone still in my arms? Now she doesn't even like to snuggle! ***SIGH*** It really goes too fast. Anyhow, Mike seems to be feeling better but we can not get any answers out of the doc. We were told to call about his blood test results and the nurse has nothing for us. We are assuming that every thing is OK. Also on the college front...I am SUPER excited for May!!! We have a couple of interviews but that is NOT the fun part, the best part is that we are meeting our best friends in Edmonton, staying in a hotel and then they are coming home with us!!! Super exciting. We have completed the 3 assignments required of us for the first Unit and now we are moving on to the second unit. Also, I was reading in the Army magazine about a couple who has been accepted for college...They have a son who looks to be about Meg's age!!! I am REALLY relieved about that! One of my prayers was that there would be a young couple with a kid like us...God is all about the details. Now I just hope that we get accepted for this year. It is all in God's hands...We do feel that the timing is right for this year. Anyhow, I am not too sure what else to tell you. Our Easter was super jam packed with family stuff and not school. Which was nice. For lunch yesterday I ate a chocolate bunny. Yep, I ate the whole thing. later that night, some friends came over to "weigh in" for "Weight Watchers" and everyone maintained their weight...except for me. I LOST 3 pounds!!! Yippee!! I should eat chocolate for lunch more! Speaking of chocolate, I am hungry. I am going to go for now. Hope this satisfies my readers for now. Who knows when I will post again. most likely when I get my first assignments back. This way I can tell you if our instructor is off her rocker or not. LOL! Chat later!

Appointments & Such

Well Mike went to the Doc's today and he has to go and get blood work done every month until...well I don't know when. The doc wants to keep an eye on things and if it is still looking low, he will be referred to an internal specialist who will test his bone marrow. That is all the news I have in that area for now. I am glad they aren't just going to pump him full of drugs. The doc told him also that he can live with the platelets where they are but it would be good to know what is causing this we think so too! Anyhow that is the news on that. I will know more later I am sure. As for me I have a praise report...I needed to get in to see the dentist for a check up (for college stuff) and originally I was supposed to go in sometime in JULY! I was able to get in TODAY! Everything checked out great! No cavities!!! YAY! So that is that news. Most important news...Please, please, PLEASE pray for my best friends Jeff and Shannon. As some of you know they are struggling with infertility and we thought that this month she was pregnant and I got the news today that she is not. I feel so devastated for them so I cannot even begin to imagine how they must feel. She sounds like she is putting her best foot forward and talking about God's timing being perfect so that is good. However it has GOT to be tough. :( Please stick them at the top of your prayer list for a while. I don't know how hard it would be but being a Mom myself and knowing how much I love my daughter, I couldn't imagine not having her in my life. I just want them to have the same thing. I know they will someday, it is just hard watching them go through this. Also it kills me to see so many people getting pregnant and NOT wanting to be...I KNOW that these two would be beyond wonderful parents. It is just hard. Kinda' makes me angry and sad. :( So yah, please pray...Pray for peace, healing, patience, comfort, love and joy as well. Thanks everyone for listening to me. 'Til next time...

Rip Off.

Ok so I have to admit that I stole this from my friends blog because I thought it was too beautiful not to share with you. So enjoy it and really take the time to digest it all. Many truths are written here. I will most likely be writing later about Mikes doc appt. Until then, enjoy! Oh, and I love you.

A wonderful Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend
more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses
and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more
degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more
experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too
little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too
tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too
much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years
to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back,
but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We
conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the
atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan
more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We
build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies
than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small
character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days
of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality,
one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from
cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the
showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology
can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to
share this insight, or to just hit delete...


Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not
going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe,
because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is
the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but
most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes
from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person
will not be there again.

Give time to love , give time to speak! And give time to share the
precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the
moments that take our breath away.

Mini Update

Well, I have still been wuite busy. The school work seems to be going a bit more smoothly but I am finding that I enjoy working during the day while Meg is sleeping. It kinda sucks tho cause then I don't feel like doing the other things that need to be done around the house. It is a good thing that Mike is so understanding. Meg and I went for 2 walks today. Uncle BJ took us out for lunch today so we walked to the Mall. Then after Mike got home we decided to go for another lil walk. It was refreshing.
We went to the shrink again and he told us that he is going to write a "highly favorable report". So that is great news. The weekend in itself was awesome. Things seemed to just work out perfectly in regards to timing. Thanks to Bill & Renee we had a place to stay and the weekend went really smooth.
Mike goes to the doctors On Wendsday (providing they don't cancel again). I will have more for you then. Bye for now.

Sorry

Alright, so I know that I have not posted in awhile and for that I apologize. Just a heads up it may be like this for a bit until I feel like I am far enough along in my studies to do so. I do want to share something neat that happened to me the other day. I was driving out of my cul de sac and my neighbor was driving in and we ended up stopping in the middle of the road to chat. Long story short, she is going through some REALLY tough things right now and I was able to minister to her and pray with her. That is what life is all about, ministering to the hurting people. Anyhow, she called me today just to thank me for praying for her and I was able to share some of my testimony with her. It was such a great experience. If you think of her please pray for her. Also pray that I will have more opportunities to share God with her. There is nothing more exhilarating then being able to share God's loving grace with the hurting world.
Also, My best friend needs you all to pray for her. As I have shared before our best friends have been trying to conceive for a few years now. We are praying that this is the month that it happens. Pray for them both to stay healthy and that they are able to begin the journey of parenthood this month. Those of us who are parents already, just think about what life would be like without our kids. Now pray for them. All she has wanted to be her whole life is a Mom. I believe that God knows her heart and I pray that His timing is now. Also our family is travelling to Edmonton again tomorrow to see the shrink again on Saturday so you can pray for us in that area. Thanks everyone. I will try and post when we get back. Have a great weekend.

My Funny Day

I forgot to tell you guys about something funny that happened to me yesterday. In the mornings I go down and fix everyone's breakfast and then Mike brings down Megan and I breastfeed her while Mike is getting ready for the day. Well yesterday, Meg and I were waiting and waiting for Mike to come down and eat breakfast and I was rushing him because the time was ticking away. I was watching the clock and getting concerned that he was taking so long. Mike carpools with a co worker and I was afraid he was going to miss his ride because he was taking so long. So you can imagine my surprise when he comes to the table wearing his uniform! I said "Why are you in your uniform?" Then it hit me...It's Sunday not Monday!!!! A smile flashed across my face as well as a blush because I was thinking "How dumb is he going to feel?" LOL! It was the weirdest feeling ever! I was all prepared for Monday and was pleasantly surprised to realize that it was Sunday! SO it turned out well! Have any of you ever had an experience like that? I would love to hear about it so leave a comment!

Are We Crazy?

Hi everyone, let me start off by apologizing for not posting for a few days. Life here has been crazy. I am sure you are all waiting to hear if your suspicions are in fact true or false? Are we are crazy or not?...SO I will share my experience with the shrink and let you know the outcome. When we got to the docs office and he greeted us, my first thought was "Wow Mr.Rogers is our shrink"...This guy was his twin! Right down to the shoes and cardigan! He was a soft spoken, wonderful, spirit filled man! He was super easy to talk to and I loved the fact that he was transparent with us. I was even able to ask him if he had a good relationship with his own spouse. The reason I wanted to know is because too often we hear of councillors having horrible relationships with their own family all the while trying to "fix" others! I was relieved to know that he and his wife are very much so in love. This guy was great! I would recommend seeing him even if you don't have issues! He is a fountain of knowledge and our time there was spent fellowshiping and pouring over bible passages which he knew a lot of history (which I LOVE). It was so refreshing to listen to him speak freely about the Lord and the Word. There were many affirmations as well. I can't think of one negative thing he brought up to us so I guess I will tell you what you have been waiting to hear. It sounds like we are the right amount of crazy to become pastors. We still have one more session with Mr.Rogers, oh, I mean Roswell. So we will be in the city next Saturday as well. He said it was going to be a pleasure writing our report for THQ. Whether or not he is just saying that or not, we will find out. Anyhow...That is the scoop on that. Mike and I are struggling to get back into the studious saddle and are finding it hard to learn all the material asked of us. We have 3 assignment due for April 10th and we are working the best we can. Please continue to pray for us as we walk this road. So far there has been a slight incline to the hill and it looks like it is going to get steeper...We need strength! Thanks for your prayers!

Can You Count Your Blessings?

Well I SHOULD be doing some homework but I just can't shake this thought so I decided to blog about it. I was thinking about the many blessings that I have and I realized that I have too many to count. This isn't a new thought but more of a renewed thought. Essentially everything we have in life is a bonus. All we really need is food and water and maybe a roof over our heads. I stopped and took stock of all that I have and I must say that I am a blessed person. Bare with me as I brag a bit...I have my health, plenty of food, a beautiful home (not just a house),the best husband in the world, the most precious baby and a purpose in life. What more could I ask for? I was also asking myself if all of these things were taken away would I still feel the same way? I would like to think I would. If for some reason God thought it was time to bring Mike and Megan home...Would I be ok? After some thought and as hard as it would be, I have to say...Yes. I would be ok. Maybe not right away but I would eventually be okay. God has given my family to me but they are just a bonus. All that really matters is that I have God in my life. Being a Mom has made me really rethink this whole thought. Would I be okay if I ever lost Megan? It was really hard to come to but I have to answer yes. Partly because I know it is the right answer but mostly because I believe it now. After all, God lost his only son....I know I would see her again. I love my family so much that it is hard to put into words. All of this was beyond hard to think about. The closer I am growing to God, the further the things of this world are getting. Hard to fathom I know but that also includes my family. A lot of people experience hardships and become calloused and angry at God. In those times it is hard to remember that God doesn't "do things to hurt you" I do believe that he does permit things to happen for our own personal growth. I have too many blessings to count but the best one is my personal relationship with Jesus. My family is a VERY close second. I really am a blessed person. Spoiled to the core really. How could I not be being a daughter of THE King!

Another Update

Alright so yesterday we got our "Intro to Officership" course and I have to admit...We have our work cut out for us. It is going to be tough jumping back into the saddle of studiousness. Maybe a certain friend of mine will "help" me study...By studying I mean feeding me cafe mocha! LOL! At least there are no tests to do just a MILLION essays and a bunch of reading. It is really tough relearning how to study. We will get it tho.
Mike's doc apt has been moved to the 28th! How frustrating is that?!?! Apparently platelets affect everything! So please continue to pray for Mike because he will feel tired until this is worked out. I feel for him. Balancing personal devotions, work, home, church and now school would be REALLY tough when you are tired all of the time. I am SUPER proud of him tho. He is an amazing guy! Meg went to bed last night fine yet for some ODD reason she decided to get up twice last night and SCREAM HER FOOL HEAD OFF!!!!! Being the major SUCKER I am, I went in and got her BOTH times! The second time I actually brought her into our room and had her lay down with us. She was FINE. Actually she was BETTER then fine. She decided to use the time in Mommy and Daddy's room at 1am, to practise her new laugh! I am sure as she was laughing she was thinking "Ha! I got her!!! I win! I win!" She DID win! The way I think about it, she is only a baby once. Let's see her try and get away with this at 2 years old! LOL! She probably would but don't tell her that! **WINK** Besides there are worse things in life then listening to your sweet daughter develop her laugh at 1am! I really am blessed.
So needless to say I am tired and a tad bit overwhelmed. Throw a little excitement into the mix and you have me. Also I want to warn you, I may not be posting as often due to the work load. Or at least until I find my groove. I WILL try tho! Keep the prayers coming! Thanks!

Back At It.

So the weekend is over and I am trusting that you all had a good one. I know our family did.

We went to the silent auction on Saturday and we had such a nice time out. I really enjoy that sort of thing. It was so nice. I bid on some hair stuff from a salon and I won. Mike bid on a cordless phone and won. So we both walked away with something nice. We especially had a great time out together. Megan came with us for a little bit then at bed time we took her home and Gram "watched" her for us.

Sunday was so great. I guess anytime you spend with God is great! The worship time felt so intimate. Mike has started to "expect" more from our church family when it comes to worship. He said something yesterday morning that was super cool. He said that often we see worship as a spectators sport but it isn't. It was cool to see him step out and ruffle feathers so to speak. He even asked everyone to stand with him to worship. In our church that is big! Anyhow it was VERY enjoyable! I love my husband...He is HOT!

On other news...Mike's doctors appointment, which was supposed to be for tomorrow morning was moved to the 28th! Grrrrr!

Our course that we enrolled for on Thursday is coming tomorrow. That should keep us busy. Well that is about all I have to share for now.

Hope you all like the new look of my blog. I like change. Change is good! More later!

A Nice Time.

Last night was VERY enjoyable. My father decided that he wanted to take his family out for supper. So that is what we did. My brothers, sister in law, Mom and Dad were all there. We were missing a few kids but it was still nice. We all sat around the table eating and talking. It was peaceful. A thought came to me..."There will be a day..." The day will come when it won't be so easy to plan a get together. I try not to take that for granted. Getting together with family and friends is so important. "You never know what you have until it is gone" I don't know who coined that phrase but I DO know that it is something I DO NOT want to experience. I know that I have a family right here in town and I intend to enjoy them while time and life is in my favor. I urge all of you...Please do not take each other for granted. Life happens so fast. Enjoy your family every chance you can get. Put aside petty differences for a time and just love one another. We are blessed people and unfortunately...There WILL be a day on this earth that we will be separated. Hopefully we will all be reunited under God. Well that is all I have for now. I might post again later. There is still much more to this day. Enjoy yours!

I Had a Great Title!

First of all I HAVE to say that I DID have THE BEST title for this blog last night but of course it has escaped me!

Anyhow I have been asked for an update so here's what's been happening in my world...

COLLEGE STUFF:
Well yesterday was a CRAZY day for college prep stuff. I started the day with a phone call from one of my pastors (also my mom in law). Anyhow she got an email asking if Mike and I had been enrolled for a course that we need to take BEFORE we go to college...The course starts March 12th!!! That's right THIS Monday! So you can imagine my surprise! We didn't even know about this course! We were told to enroll ASAP if we were hoping to go to college this September. Apparently the course date was moved from May to March. Applying for college is a BIG process and we were just a step behind enrolling for the course but because of the course date change, we were pushed along in the process. Many of you know that next weekend we have to go and see a physiologist as well as the weekend after. Once those visits are complete THAT is when you usually enroll for this course. It worked out tho. I called the college and a lady got back to me and I was able to pay for the courses over the phone. At bible study I faxed off the actual application. I am happy to report that I received an email this morning stating that everything went through just fine. We are now enrolled for "Introduction To Officership". Our text books along with the course is being sent in the mail shortly. The cart is ahead of the horse at this point...I take that to mean there is a HUGE possibility that we WILL be going to college this year providing everything checks out alright. I may be too much of a nut case! You never know!

Anyhow I do want to share a HUGE fear. Those who know me well enough, know that I like to have an "out" so to speak. I like knowing that I CAN get out of something. Right now I am super scared. I know that God has placed this call on my life and I can't get out of it. Well I could but I know I would be miserable for the rest of my life! I am calling on all of my faithful readers to pray. I am scared. I am scared for so many reasons that it would have to be a blog in itself. Maybe sometime when I have enough courage to share my fears I will do that. For now I would appreciate your prayers. Well I will leave you with that. I will give updates about college and health concerns as they come. Thanks for listening or reading anyways...same difference! Love to you all!

Interesting Thought, Not New, Just Interesting.

SO today is my Mom's 51st birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!! I love you! The cool thing about today is that for a while she didn't think she would live to see her 50th. Look at her now...One year past her goal and she is alive and serving God! After her heart attack three years ago, she found Jesus!

You know sometimes when you are praying for something and you think things should go a specific way? Well I was telling my mom the other month about something that struck me again. It wasn't a new thought but it was just...fresher. We were discussing the fact that we have been praying for her overall health conditions. It seems as if nothing is getting better and I told her that for a while I was asking God why?..I told her the answer I got by asking her this question..."Would you be serving God right now if you hadn't had your heart attack?" The answer was obvious. "No." It was a new thought for her. If she wasn't brought to her knees forcefully so to speak, she most likely wouldn't still be on them today. I also believe that if she was feeling 100% she would most likely forget that she needs Jesus to lean on.

See, I believe that God does not want to see us suffer but He can use our suffering to bring us closer to Him. God always knows what is best for us, even when we don't understand it. The truth is, I would love to see my Mom completely healthy but not at the expense of her salvation! SO on the days that you are wanting to ask God, "Why?" Just remember that He is our Father and He knows best. Also the whole picture when seen from afar, is much more beautiful then close up!

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding....."

Proverbs 3:5-6

It's Monday!!!

Hey everyone!

It's Monday and I must say that my family and I had such a WONDERFUL weekend!!! On Saturday Daddy and I took Meg swimming for the first time! She is a regular fish in water (just like her mom)! I even took her down the water slide twice!!! It was so much fun. Later that evening Mike and I took in the "Grease" production it was wonderful! Bill and Renee came over and "watched" Meg...She was sleeping. A HUGE thank you to them for doing that for us! After Grease we decided to grab a bite to eat at BP's. It was a regular date night. It was a blast.

Sunday...Well first of all, thank you to all those who were praying for me as I delivered a message I thought God wanted me to share. As far as I can tell it went well enough. Mike's dad is still under the weather but he was still there via a cell phone. It was neat!

Well that was my weekend, today has been uneventful so far, which is nice. Have a good day everyone!

Another Update,

Hi Everyone!

Today you all get the pleasure of reading two posts I have done all in one day! WOW!
I have an update about college stuff. I think I might have mentioned that we have our appts. booked for this month? The first is on the 17th and the second on the 24th. HUGE answer to prayer in so many ways that it may have to be a blog in itself!!! Anyhow we received an email today from the mental health tester guy...Yah good thing they aren't testing my knowledge in terminology! LOL! Anyhow, it seems that they are missing 3 assessments on both Mike and I so we have some homework to do soon. They are all online assessments so they should not be so bad.

As for Mike, we got another call and it turns out that his platelets are only slightly higher then then the first test. So now he has to go back in to see the Doc and they will discuss treatment. He doesn't go for a couple of weeks so please pray that he doesn't cut himself. We were told that if he is cut he may not stop bleeding and if this is to happen he is to go to the ER...Hey I love that show!!! Anyhow, he is to go there right away. Kinda' scary but nothing that God can't handle!

Today has been super crazy busy!!! Tons of things that needed to be done in like less then 2 hrs. It will get done tho! Eventually. Also, please pray for my father in law, he is quite sick. He has been sick for a few days now and because he is sick I get the privilege of taking over the pulpit this Sunday to give the message. So as you are praying please pray that God gets His message out there thru me. Well I think that is all I have to tell you for now! Until Next Time!

Ramblings About Friends

All I really want to do right now is give a shout out to those friends of mine who really strive to make life easier. Yesterday was a huge testament to what I mean. In the midst of trying to make plans to find a wedding gown for one friend, another friend of mine offered to take my daughter while we looked for gowns. What is so cool about this is that the thought didn't even cross my mind at all! Of course it would be easier not to have my 7 month old with us dress shopping! The funny part is that I was originally supposed to be going to her house for the afternoon for a visit...She ended up babysitting for me instead! Anyhow to that special friend who constantly tries everything within her power to make life easier...THANK YOU!!! You are a true blessing to me and I am sure, to all those around you!

Update

Hey Everyone,

Here is an update on Mike's medical stuff and College stuff.

First of all the medical stuff is kinda frustrating right now. We waited 2 weeks for his appointment and when he got there he was ordered to do the blood test again. So we...well more like I am still on pins and needles to hear what is going on. He was told to go to a different lab and redo the blood test. Hopefully we will know more about his health by the end of this week. Sorry I don't have more for you guys. Thank you all for your prayers and please continue to pray for us.

As for college stuff...I have a praise report. We are needed to see a physiologist (for those who don't know, it is just part of the process) and we were told that this doc prefers 2 appointments in Edmonton. This originally meant that Mike would have to book 2 days off of work because they were both booked for Wednesdays and in April! First of all we were told that these appointments should be booked in for 4-6 weeks time. So if they would have stayed in April, the deadline would have been REALLY pushing it. Then I got another email saying that 2 appointments opened up for March! One on a Wed. and one on a Sat. from 3-5 (they require 2 hrs) so that was pretty cool. Except during those times I would have had to stop and feed Meg sometime. THEN I just got another email this morning and was told that we could have 2 Saturday appointments! Get this the times are both set for 1-3!!! This means that Megan will be napping by then! YAY! The best part is that when the lady was booking them I just told her that we would have to pray that it all works out for the best all around. See what God can do?!?! Praise God! I feel at peace with this.

Anyhow, today I was invited to go to a good friend's house today but it just wouldn't work out mainly because I don't have a vehicle. I was sad but it kinda works out because now I am going wedding dress shopping with Neen. Should be fun! She is getting married in June so we don't have too much time to get her a dress! So please add her to your prayers.

Thanks for listening everyone. Have a blessed day!

Me.

Been A While

Ok so first of all sorry to all of my faithful readers because I have not been as faithful in posting these last few days. After this long of an absence I am still finding it hard to come up with something interesting enough to blog about.

College stuff seems to be at a stand still. We are still waiting for our physiological appointments to be made. Apparently the lady booking them has been playing phone tag with the doc. Hopefully that will get worked out.

Mike and I got our blood work results back and we realized that I am WAY more healthy then him. One of his results was critical enough for him to get a call back to see the doc. He goes tomorrow for his appointment. I read the result and it really didn't sound too good. It has been a stress on me lately because your mind can play nasty games with you. I am just trusting God completely for a better report tomorrow. Google can be a good thing sometimes but it can be scary as well. We googled his health problem and it brought up some pretty scary things with it. Mike at this point is just annoyed with his results more then anything. He has been quite health conscience for years and it seems like it hasn't helped him. Just think of what COULD have been if he wasn't aware of his health. Anyhow depending on what we hear tomorrow I will try and give you an update.

Megan is growing so fast. Yesterday I had such a great day with her. For the last while anytime I walked into the room she would whine. I know it is only because she loves me and wants me but it would be nice to hear giggles and see smiles. Yesterday was like that. Anytime I walked in the room she lit up. I was overwhelmed all day with joyful emotion. It hit me once again that I am a Mommy. I will NEVER take that for granted especially because one of my best friends has been struggling for years to be a Mommy. Please continue to pray for her and her hubby as they walk this journey of infertility. I couldn't imagine not being a Mom now and I want her to experience this joy. Your prayers are appreciated.

While we are on the topic of prayer, please pray for myself and Mike. I must admit even tho his health is most likely fine, it has really bothered me. I am sure nothing is wrong but there is always the "What Ifs". I have been some what emotional about it which seems silly I am sure. We don't even know if anything is really wrong. Tomorrow will be of some help. Please pray for Mike and please pray for my emotional well being. It is hard.

Also please pray for college stuff. I am still remaining quite peaceful about it all but now I need prayer so I don't become apathetic. Thanks for the many prayers I know it is a tall order but with Gods help you are capable of all things! thanks everyone and have a good day! I will possibly post tomorrow about his results. Bye.

All The Junkie Stuff.

So I am here witting and I am a little over emotional right now. I have had just one of those days where I was hoping things would go a certain way and I felt like I was 4 years old and playing "opposite day". I am sure you all have played this game at one time or another...You tell each other that whatever you say or do is the opposite, so if you wanted to answer someones question and the answer was "yes" you would say "no". Anyhow today was one of those days in the way that I REALLY wanted to go over to a good friends house today and just veg out and visit and talk about nothing and everything. Instead I stayed home and tended to some family issues. Also for the past 3 days Meg has been quite fussy and I am just in need of some adult girl time with NO kids. As much as I love my family I do need to get away for a while. I thought tonight would be a good time to get out with the family and go to bible study, however the same thing happened as every week...Meg was fussy so I took her out. I know I probably didn't need to but I really felt like she was a distraction and I couldn't relax anyways knowing that she could be disturbing other people who have come to dig into God's Word. My hubby did mic the room for me so I could still hear what was going on but that turned out to be worse because I could just hear what I was missing. All the laughing and fellowship made me emotional. So of course there I was tending to my precious baby girl all the while crying and feeling so selfish for not being able to be in there too. Childish I know. I am so blessed to have a family yet here I am complaining about it. Makes me feel guilty. Anyhow Sorry for the depressing post but that is about all I have for you today. I do have wonderful news tho...Mike did come home with flowers the other day. I am truely blessed! Love you all...Please pray that I get over my pity party fast. Really I have NOTHING to complain about at all! Night.

Happy Family Day!!!

Today was a great day with my family. In the morning it was just the three of us then come late afternoon my house was over run with family from both sides. It was nice. Who cares if the kids were all hyper and it seemed like they ate a TON of sugar before they came...It just means that they were happy to be here. Who cares if my table is not big enough...That just means I am blessed with a big family. So what if there were two babies who were crying and fussy all night, I am just glad to be a Mom AND an Auntie! We all came together, pitched in a had a beautiful evening together! One of the best parts of the evening is that my house looks BETTER now that everyone is gone then it did before they came. Funny how that worked out isn't it? Needless to say I am VERY happy to have my family. Good night everyone, always remember to enjoy your families everyday.

Lobster!!!

So on Saturday Mike and I went to get the basement suite ready for the new tenants. After a few hrs of cleaning and going to pick out and order new appliances to put in there we ended up having a celebration night with his folks. His dad and I ended up picking up 4 lobsters and some steak and muscles and we had the best party ever...AN EATING PARTY! IT was so fun just to sit around and fellowship. It has come to our attention although not new, there will be a day when we can't just do something like that. It was nice to do. My prayer for everyone reading this is to not take anytime that we have to spend with our families for granted because there will be a day when it won't be so easy to do...Good night all! I am going to spend time with my family!

Seems Like Forever

Ok so it seems like forever since I have last posted something. Here is an update. I think I mentioned that we had our medicals and our blood work done. Well So far only Mike has gotten a call back in to see the doc. We will find out why on the 28th, please pray that it isn't too serious. Apparently I am not off the hook yet because all the lab stuff hasn't come back yet. We are waiting on the rest of our blood work. I am curious to know how my cholesterol is doing. A while ago we found out that my bad cholesterol is fine but my good cholesterol is not too low. I tried to control this with diet and exercise. That is why I lost the 40lbs and started to eat right. I am hoping that it paid off! Anyhow that is the update on college stuff.

Meg had her 6 month shots yesterday (Happy V-Day to her)! She did SUPER good! She weighs just about 16lbs and she grew 3 inches in the last 2 months! SO all is good with her. She was good with the needles didn't even flinch with the 1st one but the 2nd one she felt. She didn't cry too long tho so that was GREAT! Now she doesn't have to go until she is a year old! YAY!!!

For Valentines Day I went swimming with my bro! LAME I know. However not so lame because Mike and I don't really observe V-Day as any more special then say today. However he DID go out and get us some treats to watch American Idol with, so for the rest of the evening we ate yummy snacks and drank chocolate milk out of fancy wine glasses! It was nice I will admit that. Other then that there is not too much more to tell you. Sorry I haven't written in a while but life just seems to catch up with you once in a while. Have a good day everyone!

Oh The Many Meetings!

So this morning Mike and I had to go and get our blood work done. It is old hash for me but for Mike it was a first. It went well so that is just one more thing checked off our list of things to do.

However I am in the middle of booking a physiological appointment in Edmonton for both Mike and I. We have another appt to go to in Edmonton as in May so I was hoping to work the two meeting around the same time. I got an email back from the lady who books the appointments for us and she would rather that this appointment be within six weeks! She did say that we have to attend a divisional meeting in Edmonton as well so I could book that meeting and she will work the physiological appt around that one! I didn't even know that we had to go to a divisional meeting! So it looks like we will be doing alot of travelling in the next couple of months. It is fun tho. It really looks like they are trying to make it so we can attend college for this year which is nice. It is all exciting and scary too.

Also it looks like we will not be moving into the basement suite. We have decided to rent it out to a really nice young christian couple who are getting married next month. So it is nice to know that I will not have to pack up twice! Anyhow that is about all I have to say for now. I will try and get more consistent with writing again! Have a good day all!

The Thing About Friends

Here's the thing about friends...tonight Mike and I went out just the two of us and for us babysitting is really cheap. Mike's parents collect loonies and toonies so depending on who babysits they are happy to get either a loonie or a toonie. Well Mike and I never really carry cash so we went out to Wal Mart and we were going to buy something for the purpose of using the cash back feature on the debit machine. Then we were going to buy something else to break the $20 so we could get the loonie all to deposit the rest of the money back into our account! Complicated I know. Anyhow we ran into some friends who were on a "date" or something like it...and I hit her up for a loonie! What she doesn't know tho is that it REALLY saved us a whole lot of hassle and unnecessary spending. The thing about friends is that they are always there when you need them! I appreciate you my dear friend, thank you for always being there for me in more ways than one! You will see your loonie again. Love ya!

Good Times

Last night was SOOO much fun! Mike and I had a 2 friends over last night and we all chipped in for pizza and then watched 2 movies! We watched "Cars" and "Over The Hedge". We now own Over The Hedge because Aaron (one of the friends) instead of bringing his as planned, bought us our own! How thoughtful is that?!?! Anyhow it was so nice to just be me for the night with no responsibilities other then for my own actions. It was very refreshing to just sit back and enjoy great company and fun movies and of course PIZZA!!! Which a want to do again tonight by the way! Well that was my last night as for today it is just starting really. No real plans yet. I am sure I will write about today tomorrow! Have a good evening!

Medicals

So today Mike and I went to get our medicals done and I must say that it was the fastest way to spend $150.00!!! It took like 20 mins! It is a good thing we are healthy.

I am SUPER excited because tonight Mike and I are having company over and we are going to pig out on pizza and watch the movie "Cars" and possibly "Over the Hedge"! I am looking forward to that for sure! Anyhow that is about all I have to say for now. I will try and be more interesting the next time I write. Have a good weekend everyone!

The Joys of Daily Living

Well, It is FINALLY done! Today I sent off all of our mental health paper work. So now all that is left to send away is our medicals. I am anticipating a bit of a wait for that paper work. Our doc has to get copies of the lab work even! It has been quite a fun process so far. It really is like digging at a mountain of sand with a teaspoon. However I have been told that it is a "HELL of a GOOD life" so it is worth it! I still wonder sometimes if I am cut out for this stuff but then I am quickly reminded that as long as I allow God to work thru me I will be fine.

Besides that not too much else is new. I have to say tho, we have been blessed with a ton of CUTE clothes for Megan and I must admit that I am LOVING dressing her up in a new outfit everyday!!! I Have started to take pictures of her in these outfits as proof that I didn't dress her up as a nerd! I remember looking at my pictures as a baby and I would say "What were they thinking?!?!". I REALLY don't want Meg to say or think that. The funny thing is I am sure she still will think that. Oh well I am trying my best!

My Mom is supposed to have her surgery on Monday and her Doc told her that HE is nervous about it! Like REALLY!! Come on Doc!! He is not concerned about the surgery itself just her recovery. She was told she may have to spend a night in the ICU because of her heart problems...I just thought that ANYONE could spend the night in ICU because of any problem. Also they said they could just send her to Edmonton for better care if need be. We will see what will happen. So I am remaining positive, that is all I can really do except ask you all to pray for her. Thank you in advance.

That is all I have to say for now really. Thanks for reading. I will keep you updated on all the BIG and little news. Bye!

Visits and Stuff

So today was just a crazy GREAT, refreshing day! I have this friend who whenever I go to her house she feeds me like crazy! I had a HUGE lunch and then on top of that not 1 but 2 that is 1 and 2 MASSIVE pieces of the BEST cake ever! She baked a cake while I was there and boy did we eat it! You gotta love friends who just let you eat without any judgements what so ever! A good friend is one who is the first to grab a fork and eat right along with you instead of thinking twice about having that second piece of cake. Anyhow SOOO GOOD! After that great visit, Meg and I went to see my Mom in the hospital. Then we picked up Mike and came home ate supper and then we took off to Kids Klub. Meg did SOOO good she is usually in bed at 7pm but didn't get to bed till 8:30pm and she was AWESOME! Made me feel more confident about the whole college thing. Anyhow that is about all I have to tell you for tonight. Good night dear readers...May all of your dreams be cake filled!!!

Lettuce Talk

SO Yah...

I was talking to my best friend today...GREAT talk by the way and I told her a story and I thought "HEY I should blog about it" so here it is. On the weekend my family went grocery shopping....Fun I know! Anyhow...Have you seen the price of lettuce lately??? It is OUTRAGEOUS! Moving On...I came across something funny. There were these salad kits that are great! They are the Asian ones that have the dressing and toppings all separated in one bag. Mike really likes them. I saw them there and they had a $1.00 off sticker so I picked up 5 bags...After all it was cheaper to buy the prepared bags of salad rather then a head of lettuce. Now the funny part is that the bags were only .98 cents to begin with!!! So essentially Superstore paid ME .10 cents to take 5 bags of salad off their hands!!!! isn't that just great?!?! Anyhow that is my salad story. I LOVE it when things like that happen! Have a good day everyone!

Weekend Stuff

Weeeelllll....

It looks like I have missed writing for 2 days now! Shame on me! Anyhow my life has been pretty much the same as always tho! It seems as if time goes too fast! I can't believe that we are already into Feb!!! My girl turns 6 months old this week. That is just unbelievable to me! On the 9th Mike and I get our medicals done. Ewww! on the 14th Meg gets her needles! Double EWWWW! So I am just waiting to hear from a doc about some paper work and once I hear I will be able to send off our mental health test! GLAD to be done those let me tell you!

Started reading a study we will be doing at Bible Study about the book of Revelations! Looks like it will be good! I just have to get over the HUGE ridiculous words! My friend and I will just have to sit with our dictionaries...between the 2 of us we will know what the words are! Everyone else will most likely be on the 3rd chapter before we figure out what all the big words mean in the PREFACE!!! We will survive tho! It is exciting!!! God's Word is ALWAYS exciting. Hmmm what else is new?

Our meeting with the candidates board was moved from April to May so Mike and I are just waiting to hear back from our best friends to see if they can watch our sweetheart while we are in the meeting. Hopefully they can spend the weekend with us too. Once I hear we can let the board know if we can make it or not. I am not too worried about anything really, what will be will be! Everything seems to be going smoothly so far. Makes you wonder...

Also there may be a change of address for our family too! We are waiting to hear back from a young couple who looked at the basement suite last Wed. They haven't told me yes or no yet but if I don't hear from them soon I think we have decided to move there ourselves and save some $$ for college. It would be a HUGE adjustment but also a good transition too!

Anyhow...I think that is all I have to tell everyone for now. Please be praying for my family in all areas...My mom is still in the hospital and yesterday she was in "congestive heart failure" sounds scary I know but basically it means that her heart is not pumping the blood properly and there is water on her lungs. The whole scene is tiring really. I feel guilty for saying that but that is life. We WILL win no matter what! Have a good day everyone!

Me.xox

My Day

Today Meg and i decided that it was time to just get out of the house for awhile so we decided to go and visit Grandma...The funny thing about that was on the way to visit her I kept telling Meg that we were going to Grandma's house. I caught myself and gave a sad chuckle because really we were not going to her house but we were going to the hospital to visit her. She has been in the hospital for over a week again. Today was tough. It was the first time since last Sunday that I went to go for a visit. I have just been so busy doing things that it was hard to get out and see her. It was actually a good step for me really. Usually when she is in the hospital I have the urge to see her if not once, twice a day. I have come to realize that this fact probably isn't too healthy. On a good note this is the first time that I have not felt obligated to go and visit her. It occurred to me that I have taken way too much responsibility for all of my family members. I must admit that it is going to be really tough for me to leave my family (in particular my Mom). We have grown closer to each other over the past 2 yrs and I am going to miss her alot. I want to share one of my greatest fears about leaving...I am scared that my Mom will die while I am away. I know that everyone dies but for some reason thinking about my Mom dying while I am away really bothers me. I just really don't want to miss out on her life. On the other hand I know where she would go. I also know in my head that God will take care of us all no matter where we are. The big problem is that I know it in my head but my heart just needs to catch up with the head knowledge. I am a work in progress as always. Anyhow moving on...After the visit that went VERY well, Meg and I went home and she napped and then after that we went and got a few groceries. It has been a fairly relaxing day actually. I am glad it's the weekend so I can cuddle with my hot husband who is waiting for me now actually. So I am going to sign off now and go upstairs and snuggle with my hubby. Good Night all! Have a good weekend!

***WARNING*** Potential Emotional Bummer Ahead...

Soooo for some reason today I am crazy emotional. It must be that time of the month. Last night I stayed up too long tossing in bed praying that I am not spoiling my daughter. She has taken to throwing TERRIBLE fits and up until today I have not done a thing about it. I decided that I did not want to raise a spoiled brat and because of this I have to be tougher on her. This is an EXTREMELY hard thing for me to do right now. It will help in the long run I am sure. Also I am kinda feeling sorry for myself because I could REALLY use a hug from my best friend who lives WAAAYYY too far away!!! She knows what to say to me when I am sad. Usually she will just let me complain and then she would give me a hug. Then it hit me hard today that if God wants us in college for this year we will be even further away from each other and then after that we could be REALLY REALLY far from each other. Sometimes I wish I could be super selfish and ditch this calling and do what I want to do...which right now would be to pack up and go and see her RIGHT NOW. I mean just load the van up with my family and take off. Sounds sooo simple right? WRONG!!! Too much to do and too many responsibilities. That is life tho and I must say I am truly thankful that I do have this life since obeying Gods call I have experienced such a peace in most areas of my life. After all we could live even further away from each other then we do now so I should stop complaining about that. I realize that others have it much worse off but I think we all are entitled to whine once in a while. That is what I have decided to do. Another thing has come to me...I have not been out of my house since SUNDAY!!! Purely because I just don't want too. Oh wait not true, I went out for 1/2 hr last night to show the basement suite...Yippee! WOW that could really be why I am feeling so "Blah". I will be getting out tonight for bible study (which has been AWESOME by the way). Anyhow I will end this now. To those who are my faithful readers sorry for the depressing post, I promise that I will not have another like this for a while. Please pray for Meg and myself as we work thru the tough stuff. I just want to be the best mother I can be. Thanks for reading and for your prayers I love and appreciate you all! Gotta go soon I want to watch "Ellen" *Wink* Bye.

Tests are STUPID!!! Or is it just me?!?!

Well what can I say? I HATE TESTS!!! So Mike and I had to do a "Nelson Denny Reading Comprehension Test" and to say the least IT SUCKED!!! I am sure everyone who sees the results of my test will think I didn't go to school. It was so nerve racking yet kinda fun all together. I don't like timed tests to begin with but that is just part of life, at least it is over!!! I could go on and on and rant and rave about how dumb this was but really I can't because American Idol is about to come on and in MY opinion that is more important then some silly test to complain about. Sorry to those of you who are dissapointed in this post but that is about all I have to give you tonight because my mind is MUSH!!! Until next time...

Melissa.

Crazy Lazy

So...Have you ever had one of those days where you really just don't want to do a thing? That would be me today and yesterday and the day before and so on and so on etc. I am gonna have to do something eventually or I will get grumpy! So tomorrow Mike and I are doing our reading comprehension test. His parents are coming here and when Meg is in bed we will do it. Apparently it is a timed test. Hopefully I don't freeze up! That tends to happen to me with these things. Maybe just maybe my good friend can come over and study with me, however last time I studied with her I ended up not being able to sleep!!! You know who you are dear friend!! LOL! Good times! She had the nerve to give ME mocha!!! That is what it was wasn't it??? Can you imagine ME on caffeine??? Back then it was NOT pretty! Oh well I am still peaceful because I know that we are called and if we obey the calling we will be ok. You know I have had thoughts like hmmm maybe this is all just a test to see if we WOULD obey and because we are obeying He will let us stay here. LOL! Not that I really want to stay here or anything but the thought did come. Anyhow that is about all I have to say. Pray for Mike and I as we do this test! After that we have 3 online tests left to do and then our physicals on the 9th and then we send all the paper work away! Then I am sure they will have MORE for us to do! Interesting!!! Life is GOOD! Have a good night all!

Melissa.

This Day

Hey all! Today is a fairly relaxed day so far. This morning my daughter was so tired that when I put her down for her first nap she was asleep before I even left her room! Pretty crazy! On a completely different yet funny note, I need to complete some online assessments for college preparation and I am afraid to start because I do not know what it all entails. The computer scares me. However I find it amusing that I was able to create this blog. Hmmm...that IS funny. Anyhow I have 3 different online assessments to do and there are an INSANE amount of instructions to go along with them. I find that part the most intimidating!!! Trying to figure out the instructions is SCARY!!! Anyhow we are still waiting for our transcripts to come through the mail and then on the 9Th of Feb. (Happy B-Day Kolton!)Mike and I both get our medicals done! You will all be happy to know that Mike and I are in fact NOT criminals!!! We got the police checks back and I was worried! Mike is after all a shady character! We pretty much have all the other paper work done here so what's left is the reading comprehension test (which is still not here by the way)and to send off all the other completed forms. So that is what is new here. OH and Meg has FINALLY been pooping HUGE poos! EWWWW! So to those of you who have been praying for her thank you! Her tummy feels MUCH better I am sure, you can ease up on the poo prayers now cause they are making me GAG! Anyhow that is about all I have to say for now. If anything more interesting comes up during the day I will most likely post it here instead of doing the online assessments! LOL! Bye all!

Busy,busy

Well this weekend has been quite a busy one. Friday Mike and I started doing yet MORE paper work for this process of going to college. Then on Saturday morning we hopped into his parents van and took off to Edmonton for the day. Mike made a great point he said it is totally different going to Edmonton with Meg. Now it is like we went there just to feed her and then came home...Kinda what it felt like. LOL! None the less it was nice to get away. Today church again was good. Lot's of people to fellowship with and can I just tell you about one of my friends who is just such a joy to be around? Seriously this guy can make me laugh so hard that I want to cry!!! He does this all the time too! He is just naturally funny. It is good to laugh. I like it! Anyhow, after church Mike and I along with Meg went to a nursing home service said our hellos and then headed up to the hospital to make our rounds there! Now we are home...FINALLY! I guess this just gives us a glimpse of what our life will be like in full time ministry...We can't wait!!! OH and a man who was at the pool when Janine and I were there (we chatted with him a bit about God)he showed up at our church! it was nice to see him! Anyhow I am going to spend time with my family now! Have a good evening all!

My Marriage

Well tonight my husband and I completed a questionaire all about our relationship (it was part of our application process) I know Janine...it makes you sad...BUT I MUST say that I am VERY blessed to be in such a wonderful marriage. Some of the ?'s just really made you think "Hmmm do people really live like this?" It was incredible. Anyhow it gave me a deep appreaciation and a sense of joy to know that Mike and I are in a great relationship. With God's help of course, it will stay that way. It just goes to show how many blessings you receive by listening to God's voice even when it comes to your spouse. I am glad that God picked him for me and I look forward to spending the rest of my life developing a much deeper relationship with Mike...God willing. Well goodnight my faithful readers, to those of you who are married...Enjoy your husbands/wives and with God's help it CAN get better...unimaginable I know! To those who arn't married yet...Pray for your spouse even now. I believe that is how I got Mike! Everyone should be so blessed! ;)

Incoherent Ramblings

So this last couple of days have been quite intense and my mind has been bombarded with some new thoughts and feeling. Today I really don't have much to say. However I have certain people in my life who would be disappointed to check out my blog only to find that I didn't post anything...So for you Shannon I am rambling. Megan continues to try her best to get a poo out but...hah BUTT lol...that is funny, anyhow as I was saying her tiny bum can only do so much however she IS trying. Other then that not too much is new. Mike and I are trying to get our house in order in case we are accepted to Training College for this year. I have gone thru a few items and gotten rid of a ton of clothes...kids clothes that is. We are waiting for our transcripts to come thru the mail as well as our reading comprehension test and our crazy test too. We need to go and pick up our police checks that are now ready...things seem to be going really smoothly. My Mom is still trying to warm up to the idea of me leaving but she will come around I am sure. Well for someone claiming not to have much to say today, I sure have done a good job. So I will say so long for now and leave this question with my dear readers...Shannnnnon and Jeffy...WHEN ARE YOU COMING?!?!

No Worries

Isn't it funny how we all think that our problems are the worst ever? All I have to do when I encounter a "problem" is just stop and look outside my "box" so to speak. For example I am concerned that my daughter has not pooped in a day (which is probably normal for sure)yet for her it is not. Also we are having problems with her left foot that always seems to turn in. So all I have to do is stop and peek outside of my "box" to realize that it isn't the end of the world that she didn't poop today, or that her foot is slightly turned because millions of women around the world including my best friend would DIE to have these types of "problems". I am in no way discrediting my own concerns or those of others. However it does put things into perspective. How often are we quick to whine over the smallest problems like a fussy baby that gets you up in the middle of the night or some food that we really don't want to eat. When all around the world there are women (one REALLY close to my heart) who are just aching inside to hold a baby, fussy or not. Or the millions of people who would kill for the food that we just "don't feel like eating". So I challenge you and myself today to just stop and do what my best friend has done in the face of her greatest challenge...Remain positive. We all have that choice. Always remember that no matter how small we think our problems are in comparison to others that God still thinks ours is huge. With that thought we are able to focus outside of our own box and let God take care of it and in turn we can serve those who are not yet in the same place as us. Imagine what could happen if we all did that. To my best friend who has brought this thought to me...I love you! Thank you for reminding me and those reading this that in all situations we have the right to remain positive. With love and prayers!

What It's All About

So last night I went swimming with a friend and after swimming we got into her car and turned on a worship song and before we left the parking lot we were having our own church service so to speak...We had a good time just fellowshipping in the Lord which is what it truly is all about. Isn't that what life should be like? I challenge you all to find times that are out of the "norm" to just worship God in prayer, praise or deed. You will find that you will be blessed and be able to give more easily off of the overflow. Be blessed!!! I know I am!

Hunger

So this weekend has been a God inspiring one to say the least. During 2 different services this weekend I got a renewed sense of passion and hunger for the things of God. I really want to be in that place where all I do is love God with all my heart, with all my soul and with all my strength. I want to abandon myself to Him and really seek after God's heart. I want to be in that place where my body aches to be with God. I want to worship Him with nothing holding me back...no matter how "unconventional" it may be, furthermore I want to share this passion and ignite this world to WANT to do the same. I know in Whom I believe and He is so much more powerful then I can imagine. I am tired of the mundane life and I am sick of missing out on the gifts that God has to offer all because I am too apathetic and lazy to get off my butt and get some food from His word. I want to tell everyone about this passion and love that I have. I want to love like I have never loved before, I want to sing like I never have and serve like never before. I want everyone to experience this type of fire that is all but exploding from my body. I want to see souls coming to the throne of God and surrendering to His will. I want freedom to reign in the lives of the broken, tired and lonely. I want everyone to experience the richness and fullness of my saviors love. I want to be hungry, hungry for His presence, hungry for His word and hungry for His spirit...I want to hunger and thirst after righteousness because I know He will fill me. I have many wants but my God has all that I need. Are you hungry?

So Begins The Process

so...my family and I are in the process of filling out papers to apply for officer training. my father in law likened it to digging at a mountain with a little spoon. once you think you have gotten somewhere the pile shifts and there is more to dig at. it is quite exciting and overwhelming. it still seems surreal. considering i am someone who likes to know the details of everything this is quite interesting for me. it is a lesson in patience and complete reliance on god. something neat has been happening tho, we find out that we need certain documents that we haven't seen in yrs and then the info just comes to me. i am able to find what we need quite easily. it is neat. so far it is painless we will see what happens next. we went this morning and got our pictures taken (a requirement for the preliminary papers) so now we are waiting for our transcripts, police checks, our medicals and the reading comprehension test. all of this is just the beginning. so to those who are reading this please pray for our family because we are working towards something that god wants us to do and with that comes opposition in many forms. i will write more as we continue this process. on his journey,
Melissa.

New Beginnings

have you ever noticed how hard it is to be patient? i sure have especially when it comes to life and new beginnings. i get scared and think that it would be easier to know what the future holds but then i come to the realization that knowing the future would not be fun at all...actually it would be rather dull and boring. also if we knew the future would we really believe that we can do those things which God has asked of us? probably not. instead i think we need to learn how to truly be His children and let His hand ecompass ours as He guides us. it's just an observation and most likely not a new one at that...just thought i would put it out there.

a lesson in life

sooo..it just came to me that I am no whiz at this computer stuff but I love to write. why can't everyone create a space where they can ramble about useless stuff? i rather enjoy having a place where I can be less then perfect. I am many things and i want honest to be one of them so to those of you that i invite to share in my less then perfect life...enjoy.