Thursday, May 3, 2012
Hello! So I know it has been far too long since I have been back here. I know it has been so long because this whole site has completely changed! With all the change on this site, I don't really know how to use it so no spell check will be done. Change is a funny thing isn't it? As I think about all the change I have experienced in the last 4 months to be exact, I think I need this place to reflect...Get my thoughts out about all this...Change. Some would say that change is good. Well, let me say that right off the bat for me...Change is NOT good. I tend to fight change...well a little. I didn't think I disliked change but some I REALLLLY DO! It is funny that I "fight" change considering my whole life will be about change. In The Salvation Army my life will change. I will change locations (cities, towns etc), houses, churches, job descriptions. You name it, I'll change it. Change is good or so they (whoever they are) tell me. So why all the talk about change? Well, today I have a 4 month old baby girl. She has changed! From the first time I held her it seems as if she has changed so much and in so little time. Is that change good? Some would say yes. For me, no. It seems as if every time I blink my baby is changing and growing. The same goes for my 5 1/2 year old girl. She is changing before my very eyes...turning more and more into a little lady every day. I DON'T LIKE IT!!!! I just want my two precious girls to stay little. I want them to still live in a world where a simple kiss from Mommy can make all owies better. I wish I still lived in a world where my owies could be covered with a cartoon bandaid. Change. It is inevitable. Change will happen. Some change I embrace. Others I resist. Recently, some huge changes were announced and my heart ached. I grieved (still am grieving) this change but all I can really do is trust that this change is good. Trust that this change is what God wants. Trust. Hmmm, now that I think about it, change and trust MUST go hand in hand. Well...Here is some change for you...I am NOT really finished with writing this post but since my bestie is SOOOOO eager to read this post and keeps interupting my thoughts...I have CHANGED my mind and have decided not to finish! LOL! How's that for change? Good or bad? Love you Shannon. I pray that no matter what change happens in our lives that we stay as close as ever. Thoughts to be continued in another post.